Heide Jordan is going through a nightmare no parent should ever experience.
“Nothing’s been elaborated on,” she told the Gazette. “But there were so many people on that holiday, it shouldn’t have happened.”
Heide was not with them and still does not know the exact circumstances which lead up to her little boy’s death.
An inquest date has not yet been set, and Heide says she is in a limbo where she feels she cannot grieve for the death of her youngest son.
“People say I’m brave but I’m not. That wall will soon come crashing down,” she said.
Heide has lived in High Street Harefield all her life. A close-knit travelling family, her parents and grandparents also live in the village.
Hundreds of relatives and members of the travelling community turned out to Keenan’s funeral to watch white horses with red plumes pulling a glass carriage laden with flowers and his tiny coffin.
Heide has four other children; Mikey, 14; Brandon, 12; Shannon, nine and Tommy, seven. They attend Harefield Infant and Harefield Junior Schools and The Harefield Academy.
“It’s even harder because the youngest one is autistic and he finds it hard to understand,” she said.
“He’s a very bright boy but he’s finding it difficult.
“The other children are coping well considering what they’ve been through.”
But the determined mother, in the midst of her helplessness and with hundreds of unanswered questions, has decided to make something positive from his death.
She and her friend Lisa Lewis, the mother of Keenan’s best friend, are organising two charity events to raise money for the Keenan Walsh Brighter Future Fund, with profits going to Great Ormond Street Hospital (GOSH).
Although Keenan was not taken to GOSH before he died, he spent two weeks there as an eight month old baby suffering with meningitis.
“I’ve always wanted to do something for the hospital,” said Heide.
“He was a little fighter.”
On June 20 the pair are hosting a ladies night at Harefield Football Club in Northwood Way and on August 24 - the anniversary of Keenan’s death - she is holding a fun day at British Legion in High Street, and she needs people to help.
“The support I’ve had from the community and the schools so far has been great,” she said.
“I want to raise as much as possible. I can’t put a figure on it. After these events I want to carry on doing little fund raising events throughout the year.”
Heide’s 12-year-old son Brandon is growing a pony tail which he will shave off during the August event and has already collected more than £400 sponsorship.
She is also collecting toys to donate to GOSH to replace some which were stolen.
To offer your help, donate or to purchase a ticket for the ladies night, call Heide on 07456 096456. Tickets cost £10 and the event begins at 8pm.
The times and full details of the August event will be released nearer the time.
If you can not attend but would like to make a donation visit www.justgiving.com/littlelegs03keenan